OR...... TWICE IN A LIFETIME
NOT....SO VERY SUBLIME
They are gone, I am
alive.they are buried. I have survived.
They were both academic achievers. both rabbis. one went to college at
the age of 15 as a Ford scholar. a lawyer and doctorate student. My second husband
won honors at Stanford. in addition to being a Rabbi he was a family therapist
with a p.h.d . they were honored
early in life and and their honor continues years after death.
I am a renagade who would stand
in the back of the room and wave a watch when sermons were too long, or run an
imaginary knife across my throat with my hand, in order to shorten a long train of verbal
I am the one who interrupted a sermon,
by saying that i disagreed with something in the sermon. We joked in front of,
and with the congregations. When my husband said “ I can’t let her have the last line.” I am the one who
responded“ the night is still young.”
I am the one,
who answered the question on national t.v ....”what is a rabbi’s wife called?”
I answered “the person who sleeps with the rabbi.”
They brought friends of great prominence
into our lives.
I am the one
who entertained them.
The night I
came home from the hospital with my second child, I entertained a new kenesset
member of the State of Israel. I
fell asleep at the kitchen table, while coffee and cake were served around me.
My first mother’s day gift came from
Hans Morgenthau. We enetrtained Philip Roth, Haim Potock, Isaac B. Singer, to name a few. All of
the politicians in Israel became buddies.
(see me and
Golda Meir, Ben Gurion, Elie Weisel,
Dayan, Anna Raynd, the top scholars and writers of the 70,80, & 9o’s were part of our life.
I am the
hostess of hundreds.
wanted to make a difference in the world.
iI am still
searching to make a difference.
They did not
want to die, each knew they were dying, each wanted to continue to work professionally unto death.
I am the one
who wanted them to stop working, gain some time.
they were in
I am the one who forced both into
vacations they resented
both very unique and died before
I am empty.
have been fired by G-d, I am a civillian, don’t have to listen, correct and
write sermons, entertain, give workshops ,teach classes , speak to groups, be
concerned about people.
They are lost
I have lost.